I have hit such a wall. I wish I could see a different number pop up on the scale. I hate the scale. I wonder if anyone would notice if it fell out a window.

Okay, I just read through everyones posts. I am totally depressed now. It seems all are losing. I am totally depressed.

I dropped a sewing machine on my knew while I was Washington. OUch. it really hurt and swelled up and I thought I might have to die for a few minutes. Nope, I iced it and all that fun stuff and I will live. I am able to do everything but the bike. Bending my knee that much hurts. It will get better and I will me just fine.
I am not losing anything and my body feels like it has retained a gallon of water. I know I sweat off that much every time I exercise and then drink more. I am seeing some progress but the scale says no you're not. It like laughs at me. It make me want to hit the machine. So I will stick with it , but seriously this is so annoying. Well keep going.

It has been awhile since I wrote. I had a new granddaughter born June 11. My youngest child got married. He is 22 but he is still a child. ALL my children where at the wedding and it was totally awesome. Then back to work and eating good and exercising and all that jazz. I am now in Washington state visiting the baby and the rest of them. It has been really crazy couple of weeks. I have been able to keep up with my exercising and eating. It really is not as hard has you would think. I have been running while here in Washington. There is a really fabulous park with a running trail. I was a lot hesitant to go running on it because there are so many trees and bushes. My son said the only thing I need to Worry about is the deer. Sure thing. I see one each time I go running. We have been eating lots of chicken and we even ate some tilapia. Fresh from the ocean. It was so delicious. FRESH rasberries are on and they are so good. Of course you have to add a little shortcake and whipping cream. It gets budgeted into the day.

Alot has happened over the past few weeks. I have been a bit nutty.

My baby who is 22 got married June 30. I have a son that lives in Washington state that showed up. His cute little wife had a c section June 11th so i was not expecting them to make it. Surprise. My daughter that lives in Chicago safely arrived with husband and two boys and one still in thewarmer. My daughter that lives in Spanish Fork also made it safely with husband and two critters.

I turned in my eating habits today. Wow, I really suck. I don't even eat all my calories. It is no wonders I am tired all the time. It totally amazed me. I can eat more of the right things and be fine. I tend to eat well at work and then at home I am terrible. I have been crock potting alot to have left overs. That has helped. I have gained weight, which is really not a bad thing. I am excercising more. I am just amazed at how crappy I eat. This is awesome for me. I am learning alot about what my diet needs to be like. Thsi has actually been the hardest part for me and I am still struggling with breaking it down into carbs, proteins. calories and such.

I have met with my trainer twice. WOW, I am a bit stiff today. I like that he pushes me but the next day I do not so much like it.
The hardest part for me in all of this is the eating. I struggle with the grams, carbs and figuring it all out.
I do feel better, even though I am stiff alot.